My oh my….2009!!! I don’t suppose that anyone reads this still. I am actually suprised that I even remembered what my username and password was!!

I just got back from working a horrible night shift. I am just glad that I am ready to go to bed-only to go back tonight. Boo hoo. At least I have a job. I am grateful for that.

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So…I’ve been on Christmas break lately. It’s been really nice. I went and visited the family after Christmas. Mom and Dad came up to Cheyenne since Chris was on call. I have to admit that I was really hesitant to have Christmas at Chris’s house, but you know it wasn’t too bad. After that I went to Utah and stayed there until the 2 of January. Unfortunately I had to come back so I could earn some money so I can pay for everything. For my LPN boards, and the state board of nursing ect. I’m a little strapped for cash right now. It’s really depressing. The only nice thing is that I moved out of Jen’s house. Thank HEAVENS!! I thought I was going to die staying there. I moved in with a girl named Lauren. She knows Lindsay Davis, so I hope that everything goes ok with her, cause we’re stuck together for 1 year. Things aren’t going too bad so far.
I’m not looking forward to starting school next week. It’s really depressing. The only thing that I take solace in is that I will be a RN when all this is said and done. YEAH! So far I really haven’t been able to get a job as a LPN. I have to take the stupid test and everything. I need to sign up to do that, soon. I’ve been working some this week. They really have only needed me 2 days so far. oh well. Live and learn eh?? STUPID BOSS!

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Yep, I’m sick. I thought that I would bypass that bullet. Do you want to know how I can really tell that I’m sick?? I have a resting heart rate of 120 and then my BP is 140/100 about. Plus i’ve been chilling, and then overheating. My body hurts too. I am sick. My throat is sore as well. I am just a mess. I’m thinking that if I’m not better by tomorrow, I will have to go to the dr.

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So it’s that time of year again. Time to stuff ourselves full of turkey, our my favorite, pecan pie. Oh how I love pecan pie! I love it so much that I tend to ask for it for my birthday! That was when I was living at home. Now there is no one to make me my birthday pecan pie. I was really sad that I missed out on it this year.
What is it about groups of people (especially my family) that get me agitated. I swear, sometimes I wonder if I’m just antisocial. I think that’s the case.
Well I came up last Saturday to Utah. I am really glad that I came now. I have to admit that the whole time driving up here I was praying that school would get canceled on Tuesday or that my teacher cancel our quiz that I knew was impending. Well sadly enough, my prayer was answered. School was canceled on Tuesday because a girl hung herself in the LCCC dorms. Eventhough my prayer was answered, I feel way bad. It’s really sad that people feel that they have no other options out of life except to take their life. There is so much that we can accomplish in this life. Sure sometimes it’s hard and it sucks, but you have to work through it. It’s better when you do. It’s hard, but it’s possible. I know from experience.

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So I was going to write about this, but I forgot. My computer is slowly dying. The one that I bought by myself with my own monies. It’s really sad. One of my USB ports is starting to go on the fritz. It’s turning whatever is in it off. It’s really annoying because I’ll be using my mouse, and all of a sudden it turns off. The only way to get to work is to plug it back in. After doing this about 10 times an hour, it gets annoying. To top it off, I only have 2 USB ports. Sigh…it sucks. Also it takes about 5 minutes or more just to have my computer boot up. I think that soon my computer will be dead. I’m going to have to by another one soon, so I’m hoping that Santa will be generous this year!! (HINT HINT WINK WINK) Well, more later.

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Suprise dad! Don’t have a heart attack! Yes, you are not seeing things, I actually wrote something. Well, I have been a busy girl. Stressed as well. It seems like all I do in life is eat, sleep, go to school and go to work. It’s like there is nothing else to my life. It has been quite depressing. It’s been crazy. For instance I sliced my finger yesterday. It hurts alot!! I basically was peeling some eggplant with my roommates peeler and it’s quite sharp. As I was peeling, I missed the eggplant. I probably should have had stiches, but instead I superglued it. Too bad I can’t afford to go to emergent care or anything else like that. I am a sad poor mouse. I have no money. Well, that’s not true, I do have some…but not a lot.
In fact today I found out some good news. It was really cool. I started out this Sunday having a bad week, but you know, after finding out what our Nursing program said in our seminar today, it gives me some hope. They said that even if we don’t pass the class and have a certain grade, we can still take the LPN boards and work as a LPN. Right now I’ve been kind of depressed because I am barely passing. The nursing program is just so stressful. I feel so overwhelmed with everything.
However that gave me hope. Hope with everything. I am just glad that things are going better.

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Man, yesterday I drove to Payson from Cheyenne with my parents. Can we say a horrible LONG DRIVE!!!! Man I hate that drive! Right now I’m chillin in my room, just surfin the web. It is so flipping hot in this place. I hate HOT!! So I’ve decided that when we go to Yosemite this week that I will probably melt. I’m going to have to make sure that mom and dad take plenty of water so I don’t melt. LOL. I’m excited to be going though. It’s going to be nice to take a vacation after school and work. I’m trying to get away from it all. YEAH!!

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Ok, you know, I’ll admit it. I’m a GEEK!! I love the library. I can’t help it!! There are so many books to choose from that I just love being here. I love being around other nerds. It’s just the opportunity to read that I love. I’m actually at the library right now. I decided to take my laptop and just enjoy the quiet atmosphere here. That’s another thing that’s nice. There’s no construction going on outside our town house and fruit flies aren’t flying into the house. I just love it here. I would live here if I could!!

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Man does it stink to be home!!! It was so nice to be sleeping in my old bed, even if it was only for two days. It was nice to see mommy, daddy and GASP michael. Most of all, it was nice to see snowball. Poor kitty, he can hardly walk anymore. It makes me feel real sad, cause he’s such a cute little guy. He eats so much food, drinks a lot of water, and is still super skinny. He can even hardly sit down cause he has so much arthritis. Poor guy. I love him!! I will be so sad when he passes!! He’s been alive for most of my life.
The sad thing about coming home is having to deal with real life again. Sigh…at least I don’t have school all summer. Mainly what I’ve been doing all day today is cleaning my room. It’s disaster area. When I get stressed, I can’t clean. That just stresses me out too much. Now that I’m not that stressed, I see how messy it looks, and want to get it cleaned up!!

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It’s the day after finals and I decided in order to not go crazy, that I would go to Gordon and Christi’s apartment play with Miranda. Boy is this girl so CUTE!!! Right now while Christi’s in the shower, she’s blowing raspberries. How cute is that!!! It also looks like she’s trying to choke herself. It could be that she’s hungry. All I know is that she’s a cute girl. This is so much better than drinking. Don’t you think???
Well, I better get her some food!!

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